Sunday, March 27, 2011

Falling Doesn't Mean We Have to Stop Learning.

I'm the girl who learns from seeing mistakes happen around her. My friends' experiences, especially with guys, either teach me something or simply scare the heck out of me...I haven't figured out which one it is yet.

(But) Even smart girls fall into the traps these boys don't seize from placing. It happens to the best of us ladies. It's what we do when we realize we've fallen for the wrong one that counts.
Take Carrie Bradshaw for example, a journalist who wrote a love column for the New York Newspaper. She learned from her mistakes, would experience heart ache but took something from every relationship, fling or one night stand she had. THAT's the way to do it. IF WE ARE GOING TO FALL, WE AT LEAST HAVE TO MAKE IT WORTH THE TIME IT TOOK TO GET UP.

XOXO Claudia G.

Friday, March 25, 2011

He stole my heart 3 years ago... last post about this new boy was almost 2 months ago. I wish I could sit here excitingly typing that I think I'm in love and blah blah blah. Well that's definitely not the case. It seems as though distance is my enemy. The one thing that kills every one of my relationships or should I say what-could-have-been-relationships. I didn't even get the chance to meet this guy. I wasn't too bummed about it though, I'm sadly used to it.

One thing that baffles me is why I can't get over "my biggest regret." He stole my heart 3 years ago and has yet to give it back. 3 years can change a person so much but apparantly not enough to change my mind. I know that he's that same kid I fell in love with.

I feel as though distance has built a wall around his heart. I feel as though he's given up. I simply can't. Yeah I'm sure there are other girls in his life and there's been other boys in mine, but he's the one that makes my heart ache. I long for him, for that kiss we shared that night in his car. When I looked into his eyes smiling to tell him I had to go, only to lean forward for one last kiss before I went to sleep. That kiss he probably doesn't remember because he had a little too much to drink. I want that side of him that he showed me that night. The guy who waited up for me til I got home and when I couldn't go to his place he came to mine in the early hours in the morning because even if it were for just five minutes, he had to see me.

Don't give up on us baby.

xoxo Claudia G.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

So There's This Boy....

Lets not get too excited here! If anything the excitement in me comes from the fact that it's a new boy :)

My major in college is made up of mostly girls. I'm not exaggerating! Having 3 boys in one class is probably too many! So I often wonder, where am I going to meet a new guy?! I'll give those details later. We havent officially met but he seems like a really good and smart guy and we've been texting and chatting (IM'ing) a lot...I tend to get ahead of myself in these cases so I need to take it easy and just let things flow.

I'll fill you in just a little for now. He likes art and photography. He attends a university near mine. He is from a city near mine. His name starts with the letter J & he is soo cute! You might be wondering....J?? Yeah, I have a thing with guys with J names, it's crazy :) I'll be sure to update you, but like I said this is the very very very beginning of our friendship. Who knows what lies ahead...

Love! -Claudia

*Note: The above picture is not mine. I googled it, it originates from the International Christian Fiction Writers Blog!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

The brain may take advice, but not the heart, and love, having no geography, knows no boundaries ~ Truman Capote

Monday, January 31, 2011

"5 Things That Keep You From Settling Down."

I came across this article yesterday and thought it was perfect to share the link so that you all could read it too. I thoroughly enjoyed what Julie Case had to say :) but I'll keep my comments to myself....until the next post! Enjoy!

Love Always and Forever- Claudia

Sunday, January 30, 2011

The Forbidden Love

That's just life isn't it. Yesterday I happened to watch two movies, an older one and a very recent one. I am the biggest fan of romance movies, they are my favorite! I know that they all follow the same story line, THE FORBIDDEN LOVE...I'ts what makes the story interesting. The writer builds up the viewer to believe that all that girl/guy really needs to succeed in the pursuit of happiness is that other main character. All they need is love & once they have it, everything else falls into place. Forbidden because of choice, class, family background, life's obstacles etc. The viewers are pretty sure that 98% of the time there will be a happy ending, but we never get tired of watching it happen.

Why? Perhaps because it is exactly the ending we are longing for. Eventhough it's crazy to hope for our handsome knight in shining armor to gallop his way towards us with roses in his hands we long for simply that feeling. (no knight or horse needed)

My forbidden love is the one I let slip away 3 years ago. I knew the second I called him my friend that I was regretting every word spoken from my lips. In my case I think timing more than anything is forbidding me from being with him. I continously and strongly believe that we can't possibly go through an entire life time without trying "it" out. That would simply be a waste....a possible love story wasted. We have too much in common, too much desire for the other to let it pass us by. I just hope that one day soon he'll realize that I was mistaken, I was scared.

All my love- Claudia

Thursday, January 27, 2011

A Little Girl and Her Kite...

It's a constant battle!!! What do we listen to??? They say follow your heart but when you do, your mind is trying not to laugh or say I told you so....It's like our minds are the child (grounded) holding on to that kite (our heart) as tight as we can.

Yet almost EVERYTIME it gets tangled in the smallest of trees...or the wind blows and it becomes uncontrollable...or a storm comes in tearing it apart slowly or instantly at times. The string is the connection, the camraderie between our minds and our hearts...the compromise because without it, there is no kite for the child to fly...without the child, the kite will remain unflown...The child controls the length of the string....or so we think since kites always seen to take a life of their own...& the unpredictable weather is our love life.

Every child hopes for those handful of kite flying memories that outdo the rest... & every child hopes that we can keep that kite flying at the perfect height in the perfect weather forever....

-LOVE! Claudia

Monday, January 24, 2011

My Mind Was Playing Tricks On Me...

Every girl probably goes through that best friend that they just wish they could fall in love with. The heart seems to have a mind of its own of which we can not control. If any girl thinks that she can make herself fall in love with someone, she is wrong. Sooner or later the heart will conquer and practically push you away from your current "love" to that of your true love :) I absolutely, wholeheartedly believe this. I of course sometimes wish I could control my feelings because I (like many girls my age) seem to continuously fall for the wrong guy.....aka the bad boy.

Today I had an epiphany that managed to lift a weight I've been carrying on my shoulders for a couple of weeks now. Now that one of my closest/sweetest guy friends (we have history together) moved here I've been soooo confused about where we stand in each others lives. He is that sweet best friend that you would love to be in love with but you simply aren't. I began trying to come up with reasons to support the theory that perhaps I am in love with him but I'm too scared too fall and be in a relationship. I kept asking myself, "Afraid of what Claudia if you've never been severely heart broken?" Referring back to my questioning about the power the mind can have, eventhough it isn't all mighty, it is very mighty. I felt so mad at myself for thinking too much, for not letting myself go (risking the loss of another good one) and for believing that maybe I'm afraid of commitment. Well I was wrong, it hit me today that the all mighty heart would conquer these fears, if I truly loved him I'd grab his face and kiss him when I have the opportunity, which is often. The power of attraction is an entire different post in and of itself (stay tuned).

So where I'm getting at here is that yes I love my best friend, but I'm not in love with him. I am one lucky girl for having him in my life, but I'm not the one he deserves and I too deserve someone else. In hindsight I can't believe how the mind can play such tricks! As always, the hearts' true emotions were revealed. I've loved a guy before, and fear never kept me from showing my love, that is simply inevitable.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

They Say You Can't Get Over the Last One 'Til the Next one....

Um yeah, that couldn't be further from the truth! If anything your past relationships obstruct your otherwise positive vision on the man currently standing before you because of the hazyness brought forth from the negative experiences you can't seem to let go of from the past. Timing is everything, I've said it before and I'll say it again. Unfortunately, the way time is handled isn't completely in our power because our minds and hearts and GOD for that matter seem to continue to hint that we are powerless, our books are written. Our duty is to accept the fact that our role is not of that of the power holder but as the reader of our own book! Key thing to remember, every person will analyze the same book differently. So once we become aware of our "powerlessness" we can accept that yes, we WERE meant to meet this nice guy/girl after that mean, loser, jack a$$, [insert rude name here]. Eventhough it might be tougher to build trust at first, I believe that we'll learn to appreciate the good ones when they cross our paths BEFORE they slip away :)

LoveLoveLOve always, Claudia

Friday, January 21, 2011

The Strength of the Mind Vs that of the Hearts

Is it possible for the mind to beat the heart?
For the mind to control the hearts emotions that are otherwise known to be uncontrollable?
Can caution overcome love?

Love isn't technical.
Love is unexplainable.
Love is uncontrollable.
Love is All mighty.